End of GirlBomb

At the end of GirlBomb by Janice Erlbaum, Jan finally quits using cocaine. She gets better and doesn't have tantrums anymore. Since Jan had been ditching her bestfriends Alice and Hope most of the time since she has been with Sebastian she started to hang out with them again. She met them at a bar with the boyses, college boys who still hung around town. She had been in love with one of the boys, Leland who finally began to notice her at the end of the memoir. He had fallen in love with her. The night at the bar he told her she decided to cheat on her boyfriend with him. Every night while her 23 year old boyfriend was working to try to get money to pay for their rent, she went to Lelands house and had an affair with him. Leland wanted her to leave her boyfriend and her boyfriend wanted her to stop seeing Leland. Either way she had to make a decision. She wanted both. At the last chapter of the book, she chose both, and ended up in the end with nothing. When her boyfriend found out she had been cheating on him he kicked her out of the house and Leland never talked to her again. Jan moved back home with her mom and brother and got ready for college. As her friends moved away and she didn't have her whole world anymore, who she thought was Sebastian, she started writing. Her mom gave her money and she bought her own apartment and was planning on going to college in the fall.

The Sea Inside

I think the movie The Sea Inside was okay. It was kind of repetative where as his answers about life were pretty much always the same, he wanted to die. I thought Ramon's plea to the court to die was his own disicion. I thought the court handled his case in a smart way. The court didnt let him commit a crime himself. I think if the court would have let him have assisted suicide, other quadraplegics, or anyone in general, would think the only way out of a life like that is to kill yourself. With Ramon's friends willing to help him, I thought it was their own choice whether to take that risk and do that. I think helping someone die is not the right thing to do. Just because he wanted to die doesnt mean his friends who loved him had to help him.

The Sea Inside compares to The Diving Bell and the Butterfly because both were quadraplegics and felt like they had no impact on the world and there was no point in living on. They were different because Bauby, in The Diving Bell and the Butterfly, didn't commit suicide. He eventually died. I thought it was selfish of Ramon to want to die. He could still talk, while Bauby could not do any of that and he still cherished his life. In my opinion, the most powerful comparison was that they both had given up on life. Bauby and Ramon felt no need to carry on with their lives and as if they meant nothing to the world.

In the movie, The Sea Inside, most of the movements were fast paced. There were a lot of close ups that signified it was a dramatic moment. The camera would closeup on the actor's face to show the intensity of the scene. Also the message being sent by the director was well played. The director tried to make each shot more dramatic using the closeup and longshots of the scene. If there was a longshot it was mostly to show meaning or show backround information to the viewers watching the video.

End of girlbomb

The next section of chapters i've read, Jan has had an addiction to cocaine. With her new boyfriend Sebastian, they both do coke a lot. Jan is becoming more and more addicted. She ditches her friends to be with her boyfriend because he gets the hookups with drugs. Since Janice has been using more substances, she has had less focus on school and friends. She has also been selling drugs so her and her boyfriend can have enough money to pay rent for their apartment. Ever since Jan moved back in with her mom, they have had a good relationship. Now, Jan hardly talks to her mom because she knows her mom wishes things were different. Jan is starting to get really sick from doing too much coke. She has tantrums and black outs. Things are starting to get serious with her addiction and Sebastian is tired of dealing with it. At the end of the chapter she passed out in the shower and almost died.

I think in the final chapters she will quit, and her boyfriend will dump her because of the situations he has encountered with Jan.

End of the memoir

In the further of the book, Jan's life is going well. She has a new boyfriend, she has 2 best friends and her mom finally respects her and lets her do what she wants. Jan's mother met with Dave, her ex husband and they are now going over costody papers because her ex is trying to get their son back. Jan jumps to conclusions and assumes her mom is getting back together with him so she runs away again for the night. Jan is skipping less school and trying to pass so she can just be done with school. She also has been spending a lot of time with her 23 year old boyfriend. He wants Jan to move in with him. Jan is always having to go by her mothers rules and he doesn't like the fact that she's still a teenager. He influences her to live her own life. So Jan tells her mom shes moving out. Although she loves her boyfriend Sebastian, she knows their relationship won't workout forever. She wonders what she will do if they break up.

Section

In Girlbomb, Jan has moved back with her mom into a new apartment. Her mom finally devorced her abusive husband and is now living with her son Jake, and daughter Jan. Jan is so happy to be home and not live in the shelter anymore. Her and her mom have worked things out and they now get along fine. Jan will almost be a senior in school. She has become heavily involved in drug use with her friends. Jan thinks her friends use her just to have another person in their clique. Jan and her mom are still having legal issues with Dave, the father of Jake. He is trying to win custody of his son Jake. Jan's mom is doing a lot better. She takes pills for her stress and is now happy to be living with her daughter.

"I shambled behind my mom all day, Jake pouting his stroller, my mom nibbling the sides of her fingers, anxious without her meds. I could barely lift the groceries, much less carry them up the stairs. My mom was alternately concerned and pissed off" (134).

Jan was having a hard time dealing with drugs. She had a lot to deal with peer pressure from her friends at school to fit in, now she was always on drugs.

Girl Bomb

In the next section I read of Girl Bomb, Jan has become more independent. Her mom called the shelter she has been living at for almost 4 months and said she wanted Jan to come home. Her mom claimed to have broken up with her abusive ex husband and is moving out. Jan knows that in a few months they will be back together. What Jan really wants is for things to go back to the way they used to be before she ran away about 6 months ago. Jan realized she has no friends at the shelter after all of them got drunk and told her how they really felt about her. They thought she was the goody two shoes of the house and she was fake. On top of the drama at the shelter, she had more with her school friends. Her friends Hope and Alice had become closer and started to forget about her. She also had a new boyfriend and was focusing a lot of her time in theater at school.

'My friend Domenic's in love with you,' said Genie
"I joined her at our bedroom window. We'd learned, over the past 2 months of rooming together, that if we squished alongside each other, we could both stick our heads out and smoke at the same time" (73).

GIRL BOMB

In the next section i've read of Girl Bomb, Jan has stayed and moved into the new shelter and made new friends and is liking staying there. She isnt thinking of leaving anymore. Although the thought of running away with her 2 best friends from school sounds like fun, she is fine with where she is now. Her friends at school have similar issues with their moms like Jan had. Jan is finding new ways to survive with her family problems and shelter.

Girlbomb

In the next section of Girlbomb, Jan was sent to an interview to see where she would be placed, a new group home or a foster care. She had been smoking pot before the interview so it didn't go well. At the interview her mother showed up and told the workers at the interview that Jan was on drugs and getting into promiscuity and truency. Jan had found out her mom was just fine without her living at the house anymore. Also, Jan's only friend Roxanne was sent to a foster home about a half an hour away from the group home. A few days later a few of the girls in the house ganged up on Jan and tried to strangle her and get her kicked out. She left the house but ended up coming back a few hours later. When she came back, she found the girl that had tried to kill her was getting kicked out of the house for having a weapon and Jan found herself even more hated by everyone in the house. She finally left the house and moved onto a different one farther away.
Living in a new home was a better start to Jan trying to start over.

Journal for Girl Bomb

In Girlbomb as the book progresses, Jan finds it harder to live at the shelter. The girls in the shelter are all mean to her and exclude her because of her skin color. Her and her only friend roxanne are nervous there not going to find a home after there time is up at the shelter. Not only is Jan getting into trouble but she is struggeling alot with fitting in and keeping up her school work at school. She wants to quit school and move somewhere far away. Her mother doesn't want Jan to come back anymore because she has failed to contact her mother and come home.
This part of the book makes me wonder why she doesn't go home and try to work things out with her mom. Even though she doesn't like her moms husband she still has a better life at her house than at the shelter.

"Well I have to find something siib, U'm past thirty days here. They could throw me out anytime." Jan thinks the nuns at the shelter will throw her out because she has been there for so long. She wants to live on her own, as an adult since thats what she has had to be, an adult for most of her life.